A Time to Mourn...

Today is May 17th, 2011. Norway is celebrating today (Syttende Mai). I am mourning. Today marks the end of my maternity leave. I went back to work after 12 weeks home with my wonderful boys. It's hard to believe Lukas is already 12 weeks old. Time flies. Lukas cried most of the day. I cried some too. Lukas' tears were from gas pain, my tears were from an aching heart. There is so much I want to hold on to, experience, and treasure with my dear little Lukas.... Journalling has been something that I have greatly failed at. I have good intentions, but I never follow through. Last night, during one of the middle of the night feedings, I decided it might be a good idea to start a blog. Maybe I will fail at this as well. But, it feels more like a conversation when thrown out there into cyberspace, so I will be more apt to write. I am an extovert and writing in a journal seems too introverted....So, we'll see what happens! I hope some of you will join me on my journey - share your thoughts - and take "time out" for yourself to wonder and cherish being a mom. As mothers, sometimes we need "time outs" just like our little ones. I know my frustration builds, I get frazzled,  and there are times I get a little too worked up, and I need a "time out". I am hoping that this blog will be a place for me and for others to share frustrations, to vent, to step back, take a breath, look at the big picture and appreciate all the joys that being a "mamma" brings.